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BABYLON A.D.

The movie ws started with pretty cool scenes... when i saw the names on the dvd cover(vin diesel and michelle yeoh), i figured out they are quite an interesting combination... i always love them both anyway.... I considered them as actors who dont smile often in their movies and most of the time playing 'cool attitude' but yet I found that quite interesting....

you know, when i started to watch this movie... i have a great expectation of the storyline but as i watched and it brought me to further scenes, i found myself in great curiosity which i thought that was just a trick to keep me in my chair and keep watching.. but as i come closer to the ending, i know there were just too many holes in this movies... probably beyond repair..

Im actually having a funny feeling that this movie was written in between of beer and sky juice(plain water).... coz it's just so mysterious and undoubtly full of questions, it comes from nowhere and goes nowhere.. like you trying to solve a puzzle with pieces completely out of shapes from each other and where there is no possible connection. the deeper the story, the more you are confused.... too bad, the actions were great, but the plot was soo pathetic and ridiculous, especially the ending part.. I should get paid watching this movie.

the only time that i probably laughed a little was when toorop(vin diesel) met with sister Rebeka(michelle yeoh) and utter their agreement which as usual vin diesel the only actor i think who doesnt talk much and could sum up lengthy explanations in simple sentence like "Dont F*** with me" and meant it.

I still do not know which category this movie should be in, with combinations of too advanced technologies which makes you wonder if it's really exist(you wont bother to find out if the movie was great no matter how ridiculous the gadgets are), but the storyline probably so badly written that you found yourself too busy to criticize on its weaknesess rather than trying to check if you have missed those technologies in the latest market. I dont even think i have any idea about the exact time period...

closer to the ending, though entertained with some pretty considered interesting action stuffs, rather than being 'enlightened', i found myself falling deeper into the darkness... then it was not so funny anymore..

i was actually looking intently at the timing hoping that it's still long enough for explanations.. i didnt even blink my eyes in case i missed the clue..

i tried to move the movie slide backward, left to the right and so forth praying it stuck somewhere and that's why it jumped into the end track.. but there was NONE.

when i saw the black screen and all the actors name appeared, i know it's time to save someone else time to watch this movie..

if you have too much happiness right now or your brain is too free and need some extra processing jobs, i recommend you to watch this movie, it could add up some 'anger' in ur emotion and giving you extra works by googling to find the best spoilers or reviews on the internet.. I bet you would probably settle with even just some gibberish or nonsense made-up conclusions from annoyed fans... hopefully no one would suffer a brain-damaged after watching this movie.... but then if indeed it happened, it would probably completely understandable...

No offence.. just a sincere opinion from me :)

batch file - opening external documents from Flash

Situation: Opening external file from flash interface. For example you use flash interface to run cookingdemo.pdf file.

Solution:

1. to avoid any confusion create one folder to store and save all the files

2. launch your notepad. In the notepad type "start cookingdemo.pdf" (The " " is not part of the command in the notepad).

3. Save it as "launch.bat"

4. Create a folder and named it as "fscommand". Save the "launch.bat" and "cookingdemo.pdf" in this folder.


5. In Flash, find the FSCOMMAND and type fscommand ("exec", "launch.bat");

6. Save this flash file and run it.


Good lucky.

Any problems?








Grief overtakes Orrisa...

another related videos (copy and paste)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubdQmUF4EiA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVJwqza-iO4&feature=related

I ws speechless when i saw these videos.. How and where it went wrong? All i could say is, no amount of hatred, tears could ever explained this situation.. You could see this trend happening around the world, be it in religions, races or political, maybe not as worse as this for now or could be even worse.. but you could see it's happening.. even in malaysia itself, people keeps lighting up the 'fire', everybody are not satisfied about something, groups keep fighting to each other for their own rights... when things like this happened, nobody really wins.. imagine what the small children have learned from these, HATRED.. it's a never ending story. all i could say is, this world has comes to an end where the word 'LOVE' is no longer understood as what Jesus had taught us... where FREEDOM of religion is a threat to others... and where PRIDE is more important than Humanity..

May God bless you whether you are Christians, Hindus, Muslims, or Buddhists, ... Each of us are precious in God's eyes and He has given each of us the RIGHT to choose whom we want follow..

My sincere prayers to the people in Orrisa..

Blessings...

Installing Canon PIXMA ip1600? (printer driver) without the printer

some printers needed to be plugged on the computer to install the printer driver, I have a problem installing the canon Pixma ip1600 a few times because I wanted to install the printer driver without the printer itself.

whenever I tried to install the printer driver it would always asked me to 'start over' again because it cant detect any plugged printer on the laptop's USB port. (the point is installing the printer driver without the printer itself).

The solution for this problem is instead of choosing 'Express install' select on the 'Custom install'. You can choose to install all the other additional softwares first bundled with this printer and install the 'printer driver' later or whichever goes first, but you have to install the 'printer driver' separately so you would have an option to do 'manual selection' during printer detection. if it cant detect the printer, you can just choose 'manual selection' and it you would skip the detection and install the printer which to be used later.

that's all folks. hope that helps.

Any additional suggestions?

You and the world today :)

im very very lazy bloggin and been busy with my work, life blah blah.. the excuses go on. life is just so frustating these days, dont you agree?. everytime you read the newspapers, there s nothing but problems, bad news in there. so i decided to read the chicken soup instead and im so glad i did, it's really inspiring and motivating me that though there are lots of reasons why we get discouraged with this world today but at the same time there are a lot of things which you learn to be thankful and be grateful. most of the time we tend to look more on the negative parts rather than the positive sides of life and that's how we ended up more depressed. sometimes and once in awhile i allow myself to go with the negative flows and when i able to come out from that 'negative world', i could say to myself that 'ive been there' and that would make me more understand others and i myself become wiser and stronger. so you see, not all the negative-way-of-thinking or problems in your life would bring 'bad lucky' for the rest of your life. it's how we use it, how we learn from it and the most of important thing is, that would indeed reminded us that there is God who cares for us. Let us pray for each other, not forgetting each and everyone of us needed encouragement and hope and most importantly, though not being perfect in faith, i would like to say this that indeed the greatest hope and the only hope that we have is our Jesus, Our God and saviour.

May you be blessed and may you bring blessings to those people around you. God loves you.


Yours truly...

Oil price - take a look at the bigger picture

Now that everybody screaming about the fuel price and im sure soon the food prices... take a look at this issue at the bigger picture.

I found this site is very informative at http://www.lifeaftertheoilcrash.net

honestly, im not satisfied with the way the government handling this unavoidable situation in terms of the sudden price changes less than 24 hours, the government should had made a gradual changes on the fuel price and not the last 7 hours, be it a week or a month, of course this would cause the rakyat screaming..

Though we say that we are an oil producer but a question u should really ask.. how big are we? based on my readings, i found out that we r just 5% oil producer and which can only sustained for the next 10 years... and the oil price will increase every year globally.. it wont go down. Our country will survive if they learn to adapt with it, and most importantly to deal with it wisely. because no matter how loud u scream to fight with this fuel price.. it wont go down.. and not just in malaysia but globally.

my only suggestions to the government are:

1. to improve the public transportation services which really badly organized since many many years ...

2. Agricultural.. we are considered one of the most blessed countries where we can produce our own food stocks.

3. Tax - reduce taxes.. i dont know how many type of taxes out there but just reduce them!! arghhh...

4. and since we all will be sacrificing something.. the government should really think about "earning" and not just "spending"...

and to my fellow malaysians.. to some of us earning really low incomes (including me of course :P)... and especially living in the city, maybe we should really start to ask ourselves "what we need Vs what we want"...

Voice out your opinions people but dont make things worse.. screaming, cursing wont change anything.. lets cooperate together..start to really know "what we need instead of what we want", change our attitude towards the environment and above all, let's seriously praying and seek God. who knows this is just another sign the end of time... visit www.vop.com - voice of prophesy.

nway.. that's just my opinion from nobody and somebody :)

Regards..

Shopping in heaven

i found this forwarded message(thank u) wonderful so i thought i would just post it here.. but in case if im violating any copyrights, please do let me know so that i can remove it from my blog.

Shopping in Heaven

I was walking down life's highway, back a while ago.
One day I saw a sign that read,

As I got a little closer
the door opened wide,
I was surprised and curious,
so I decided to go inside.

I saw a host of Angels,
They were standing everywhere.
One handed me a basket and said,
"My Child, shop with care."

First, I gathered some .

was in the same row.

Further down was

(you need that where ever you go).

Then I picked up ,

and a box of .

I wasn't sure what to get next
so a walked a little more,
the aisles were countless,
this was a HUGE store!

I continued on to find
and

to help me run life's race;

By then my basket was getting full,

but I remembered I needed some .

I couldn't pass up ,

for was completely free,

so I tried to get enough
to save both you and me.

and were plentiful;

they right on the next shelf.

were hanging near,

so I gladly helped myself.

Then I started toward the counter
to pay my grocery bill,
for I thought I had everything I needed
to do the MASTER'S will.

But as I headed to the register

I noticed a display of,

Oh how could I forget
with it so splendidly placed there!

So, as I ended my shopping spree
I grabbed a bottle from the bin,
for I knew when I stepped outside,
I would eventually run into sin.

Then I asked the angel,
"Now, how much do I owe?"

She answered,"Nothing."
"just take them everywhere you go."

In complete confusion again I asked,
"How much do I REALLY owe?"

She bleamed a glorious smile and replied,
"Jesus paid your bill a long time ago."

Now tell your friends and family
of this well known grocery store,
there is never any kind of limit,
and you can always come back for more.

Life is like a flower...

When i was small, and all of my other sibling who were in the secondary at that time staying in the hostel because the school was quite far from our house. i was still in the primary and the youngest which means only me and my parents in the house, sometimes my parents have to leave me alone in the house as early as 3am in the morning, that's how i started to really hate when i left alone in the dark and when there was no one around. I would open the bible and read it really loud, my whole body would be trembling whenever i heard weird sounds. Ive this fear that they would leave me someday alone and at that time, I always wish that if i gonna leave this world, it would be me first so that i dont have to be worried to be left alone in this world. Ive experienced many many times woke up crying whenever i dreamt each of my family members especially my mother leaving me alone and never come back. Maybe that's one of the reasons that i do not want to get too close or too depending with anyone even my own family because the fear of losing. when things around me too comfortable im afraid that someday it would really hits me when i was no longer in the comfort zone. Being away from my family for many many years, ive learned to be independent and eventually ive come to accept that I need to learn to live on my own and not depending too much on them. ive experiences people that ive come to know, come and goes in my life.Some, went away somewhere to chase after their dreams,some.. starting a new chapter in their lives, and some have gone forever. as i grow up, i have accepted and realizes that nothing is going to stay forever..

Sometimes the fear of losing makes you holding back from doing something when you can do much better, holding back yourself to know people because you know that eventually they would gonna leave you, not able to do your best in your life because you afraid it's gonna failed you someday or you dont want people to look up to you because you afraid you gonna failed them or become a stumbleblock for them.

wherever we are, whatever we are at this very moment... we could not escape the facts that life is indeed a constant battle. Things may not always the way we've planned or expected, people you have come to know and love would come and goes in your life, you have tried so hard to do something and still never able to reach your goal, you prayed for something and nothing ever happened..

God never says that with Him, we would have never experiences temptations, pains and troubles in our lives, but He promises that He would never leave us alone..

Psalms 42:5 "Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him For the help of His presence. (Ref: NAST).

Even when Jesus in this earth, He had shown to us that God would never leave Him in his battle alone..

John 16:32 " "Behold, an hour is coming, and has already come, for you to be scattered, each to his own home, and to leave Me alone; and yet I am not alone, because the Father is with Me."

... because life with God it doesnt mean everything would be easy, we would go thru difficult life and experiencing ups and down in our lives but He promises that as long as we depending on Him, He would be our pillar of strength.

Sometimes God allows all the earthly things we lean on for security to be removed so we will learn to lean on Him. You have to agree with me that Job in the bible is perfect example for this. "Suffering and disappointment can cause us to despair and become bitter, or they can become opportunities for us to grow and mature. James 1 tells us that God uses all kinds of trials and difficulties to bring our faith to maturity. “Consider it pure joy... when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything” (James 1:2-4). Perseverance means to “hang in there” in spite of opposition, discouragement, loss, or any kind of oppression.(quoted frm other site)".

Sometimes when we gets too tired of our works and all kind of busyness in our daily lives, we tend to complain rather than to be thankful we've another day to complain about when some... never had a chance to make up what's yesterday. We get irritated with the people around us and constantly nagging of what they doing.. or too busy to to spend time with them or listen to their problems because we take everyday for granted not knowing that very moment may be our last day...

Ive also come to realize that I cant do things all on my own. Im not tough or strong enough to bear all my burdens by myself. I used to keep all my problems on my own because i do not want to be a burden for others.. but i realized they would just did the same to me, because just like how i feel about it, they too dont want to share their problems with me because they too feel that I dont want be burdened by them. Life is about sharing.. whether you like it or not.. we are bearing each other burdens. but the most important thing is that to know.. we do not have to bear it on our own.. or to burden others.. but just let God to take it away for us.

..and Just like the seasons, your family, your friends or the people around you may be in your life for temporarily, or just passing by.. they did not passed by accident or coincidence... they would leave footprints in your life.. they touched your life, they taught you about something and they would leave you not for nothing.. just like what you have done to them. You would continue your journey.. and passing by many new people..new places.. experience many battles and feel many kind of emotions.. but the most important thing is along the way.. along your journey, though we do not know what is going to happen next or tomorrow, you know who is really going to stay with you and holding your hand.. you have God continue holding your hand and pulling you whenever you gets tired or stumble.

so.. do not stop loving just because you know that someday they may be gone in your life.. do not giving up kindness just because the people around you sting, and appreciate all the pure things in your life, enjoy your day as much as you can no matter how worse it could gets, reach and climb higher though you know that you may lose or fall someday... because the worse could ever happened to you is not because you have done it and you failed.. but because you have never tried..

I like this song because it taught me something about life..

Martina McBride
Anyway


You can spend your whole life buildin'
Something from nothin
One storm could come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You could chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like i think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This worlds gone crazy
And it's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all you heart
For all the right reasons
And in a momemt they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

God is great but sometimes life aint good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like i think it should
But I do it anyway
Yeah I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singin'
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yeah sing it anyway

I sing
I dream
I love anyway



or the BMG version : href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1FdB5Adws78&feature=related"

this is 'specially tribute to my late grandparents who have touched my life deeply when i was small especially my late grandmother on my father side, she passed away when i was 13/14. we used to sit around her whenever she visited us and listening to her fairy tale stories. We used to have a family reunion every year when both of my grandparents(Salagan's family) on my mother side were still alive and that's the only chance for me to meet most of my relatives. May God bless them.

Golden Rule Jones

Samuel Milton Jones was born in Ty Mawr, Wales, on 8th August, 1846. The family emigrated in 1849 to the United States and settled in New York. After a brief schooling he started work at the age of ten.

At eighteen Jones moved to Titusville, Pennsylvania, where he found work in the oil industry as a driller, pumper, tool-dresser and pipe-liner. After inventing an improved oil-pumping mechanism, in 1892, Jones set up his own business, the Acme Sucker Rod Company, in Toledo, Ohio. Jones made a considerable fortune manufacturing his invention.

Samuel "Golden Rule" Jones was a Welsh immigrant who made his fortune in the oilfields of Ohio and as the inventor of an oil-drilling implement manufactured in his Acme Sucker Rod factory. Jones experienced a religious awakening in 1894, which he announced by hanging a sign on the Acme wall reading "The Rule That Governs This Factory: 'Therefore Whatsoever Ye Would That Men Should Do Unto You, Do Ye Even So Unto Them.'"

He meant it. Jones abolished work rules and time clocks in his factory and instituted profit sharing, paid vacations, eight-hour days, annual bonuses, and an adjacent Golden Rule Park, which featured fresh air, free concerts, and speakers preaching moral uplift. His goal, he said, was to show that "this fundamental rule of conduct, given us by the founder of Christianity, was a livable and practical thing." This never been practised during his era. He started to work as early as ten year old and that's why he understood what's the workers have been through and he promised that he's never going to treat his workers as he was treated before.

The immensely popular Jones was elected mayor of Toledo in 1897 as a Republican but thereafter ran and won thrice as an independent whose platform called for banning political parties. Senator Mark Hanna (R-OH), the muscle behind President McKinley, called Jones "a crank, but he is a moral crank, and that makes the thing worse, for he believes what he says."

Golden Rule Jones's eccentricities were numerous and endearing. He stood on his head, sometimes speaking from that position. He gave away the better part of his fortune, often to strangers. He wore a flowing cravat and carried his heavily underlined copy of Whitman's Leaves of Grass into the prisons and workhouses whose inmates he visited. He paid court costs for the indigent out of his pocket.

Jones was often mistaken for a socialist, although the doctrinaire socialists derided him for his belief in Christian brotherhood and opposition to class warfare. He adorned his office with a portrait of Leo Tolstoy, not Karl Marx, and confessed, "I am indifferent to man-made laws."

In favoring public parks and municipal ownership of streetcars and utilities, Golden Rule Jones was a fairly standard, if unusually honest, Progressive mayor-except when it came to crime and punishment. "If I could I would open the penitentiaries," he said. "Anything which today separates me from the lowest soul in the penitentiary or tenderloin district is the very opposite of religion." When Mayor Jones sat in as Magistrate of the Police Court dealing with petty crimes, he routinely dismissed all cases.

His psychobiographer and great-granddaughter Marnie Jones notes that Golden Rule "stands virtually alone among nineteenth-century reformers in his refusal to use municipal powers to repress vice." The state, he believed, could not abolish sin.

The teetotalling Jones would not enforce laws against boozing, gambling, or prostitution. He urged bluenoses to take ladies of the street into their homes until they got back on their feet, so to speak. His successor and friend, Brand Whitlock, said of Golden Rule: "He was an oddman, born so far ahead of his time that the sins of others never troubled his conscience."

Jones placed his faith in "the love of Christ," not the policeman's nightstick. "I believe the only way in which the saloon will finally disappear," he said, "will be through the growth of the loving spirit in mankind which will provide opportunity for people to lead decent lives."

When Mayor Jones sat in as Magistrate of the Police Court dealing with petty crimes, he routinely dismissed all cases. He explained: "I have done by them just as I would have another judge do by my son if he were a drunkard or a thief, or by my sister or daughter if she were a prostitute."

He paid no price at the polls for his heterodox views. The Golden Rule, it seems, was not bad politics. Mayor Jones died in office in 1904. "Toledo has my heart and my life," he said as the end drew nigh.

Jones was not popular among businessman or wealthy people because of his rule. When he died thousands people attended his funeral and never before in his era would receive such highest respect.

As evidenced by the absence of an Anarchist Caucus within today's U.S. Conference of Mayors, our age has yet to find its own Golden Rule. Don't hold your breath waiting. For Albert Jay Nock called Jones "the incomparable true democrat, one of the children of light and sons of the Resurrection, such as appear but once in an era."

Source : Combined sources from different websites.

Destiny

.... People always using the word 'takdir' whenever something bad happened to them. I always thght that it was actually an excuse for not being able to reach the goal that we have set. What & Who we r when we were born is called 'fate'.. but what you'll become is called 'destiny'.. A story below might help us to understand what our destiny is..

There was a woman who always complained about her destiny. One day he met an old wise man. This woman says, " Am I already destined to do this and that "..

The old wise man said, "It is you who make your destiny."

"But surely I am not responsible for being born a woman?"

"Being born a woman isn't destiny.That is fate. Destiny is how you accept your womanhood and what you make of it.

The House of 1000 Mirrors

by: Author Unknown, Japanese folktale

Long ago in a small, far away village, there was place known as the House of 1000 Mirrors. A small, happy little dog learned of this place and decided to visit. When he arrived, he bounced happily up the stairs to the doorway of the house. He looked through the doorway with his ears lifted high and his tail wagging as fast as it could. To his great surprise, he found himself staring at 1000 other happy little dogs with their tails wagging just as fast as his. He smiled a great smile, and was answered with 1000 great smiles just as warm and friendly. As he left the House, he thought to himself, "This is a wonderful place. I will come back and visit it often."

In this same village, another little dog, who was not quite as happy as the first one, decided to visit the house. He slowly climbed the stairs and hung his head low as he looked into the door. When he saw the 1000 unfriendly looking dogs staring back at him, he growled at them and was horrified to see 1000 little dogs growling back at him. As he left, he thought to himself, "That is a horrible place, and I will never go back there again."

All the faces in the world are mirrors. What kind of reflections do you see in the faces of the people you meet?

Are You a Bucket-Filler or a Dipper?

by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

You have heard of the cup that overflowed. This is a story of a bucket that is like the cup, only larger, it is an invisible bucket. Everyone has one. It determines how we feel about ourselves, about others, and how we get along with people. Have you ever experienced a series of very favorable things which made you want to be good to people for a week? At that time, your bucket was full.

A bucket can be filled by a lot of things that happen. When a person speaks to you, recognizing you as a human being, your bucket is filled a little. Even more if he calls you by name, especially if it is the name you like to be called. If he compliments you on your dress or on a job well done, the level in your bucket goes up still higher. There must be a million ways to raise the level in another's bucket. Writing a friendly letter, remembering something that is special to him, knowing the names of his children, expressing sympathy for his loss, giving him a hand when his work is heavy, taking time for conversation, or, perhaps more important, listing to him.

When one's bucket is full of this emotional support, one can express warmth and friendliness to people. But, remember, this is a theory about a bucket and a dipper. Other people have dippers and they can get their dippers in your bucket. This, too, can be done in a million ways.

Lets say I am at a dinner and inadvertently upset a glass of thick, sticky chocolate milk that spills over the table cloth, on a lady's skirt, down onto the carpet. I am embarrassed. "Bright Eyes" across the table says, "You upset that glass of chocolate milk." I made a mistake, I know I did, and then he told me about it! He got his dipper in my bucket! Think of the times a person makes a mistake, feels terrible about it, only to have someone tell him about the known mistake ("Red pencil" mentality!)

Buckets are filled and buckets are emptied ? emptied many times because people don't really think about what are doing. When a person's bucket is emptied, he is very different than when it is full. You say to a person whose bucket is empty, "That is a pretty tie you have," and he may reply in a very irritated, defensive manner.

Although there is a limit to such an analogy, there are people who seem to have holes in their buckets. When a person has a hole in his bucket, he irritates lots of people by trying to get his dipper in their buckets. This is when he really needs somebody to pour it in his bucket because he keeps losing.

The story of our lives is the interplay of the bucket and the dipper. Everyone has both. The unyielding secret of the bucket and the dipper is that when you fill another's bucket it does not take anything out of your own bucket. The level in our own bucket gets higher when we fill another's, and, on the other hand, when we dip into another's bucket we do not fill our own ... we lose a little.

For a variety of reasons, people hesitate filling the bucket of another and consequently do not experience the fun, joy, happiness, fulfillment, and satisfaction connected with making another person happy. Some reasons for this hesitancy are that people think it sounds "fakey," or the other person will be suspicious of the motive, or it is "brown-nosing."

Therefore, let us put aside our dipper and resolve to touch someone's life in order to fill their bucket.

courtesy of inspirationalstories.com

A Scorpion Moment

By: Author Unknown, Source Unknow

There was this Hindu who saw a scorpion floundering around in the water. He decided to save it by stretching out his finger, but the scorpion stung him. The man still tried to get the scorpion out of the water, but the scorpion stung him again.

A man nearby told him to stop saving the scorpion that kept stinging him.

But the Hindu said: "It is the nature of the scorpion to sting. It is my nature to love. Why should I give up my nature to love just because it is the nature of the scorpion to sting?"

Don't give up loving.
Don't give up your goodness.
Even if people around you sting.

courtesy of inspirationalstories.com

Appreciate All Gift

by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

She tried so very hard, so very many times, to walk away from him; to escape the hold that he seemed to have over her. She recognized that he chose to live such a separate life and had little room for her, but for a few stolen moments in time. She knew there would come a day when even the moments in time were no longer possible, yet she didn't have the strength to follow through. She couldn't move away on her own.

It was like being sucked down into a whirlpool endlessly, hopelessly spinning downward. But each time, when spending time with him became a possibility, she was released from the downward spiral and lifted up onto the waves, with the clear blue sky and sunshine looming above her. She took flight, soaring above the sea, above the world, in a place where she felt such joy such freedom. It was these times she could not give up.

For those moments were unlike any other and she knew they would continue to be unlike any others that would come to her in her remaining lifetime. Sometimes she almost hated the hold he had on her. Sometimes she prayed for logic, reality and reason to take control and protect her from his reach. But these efforts were hopeless. She knew she had no chance of escaping; knew that for her, this man embodied all that was beautiful, all that was precious, all that was life.

His strength, his compassion, his beautiful soul; a single hour in his presence was equal to years of peace and serenity filled with such an enduring feeling of security and safety. He rescued her from her responsibilities. Rescued her from her life, from the draining demands by all those around her. He made her whole. He made her complete.

Though she would never fully understand why the walls he put up would not come down, why it could not be more, she was left to accept what there was, yet ultimately to appreciate that God and fate had brought to her this special gift.

The conventional is not always the course. Don't miss out on the wonderful moments that can be captured in life by expecting more. Learn to accept that which touches you, which leads you to appreciate every aspect of life; that which brings you to appreciate all of the other special things in life; that which makes you smell the air after a spring rain, rejoice in the sounds of the birds, be moved deeply by a sunrise, a sunset, to feel all of the beauty that surrounds you.

Embrace anyone and anything that can make this happen for you. Enjoy it while you can and afterwards let your sweet memories return you to this state, over and over again.

courtesy of inspirationalstories.com

Three Trees On a Hill

by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate caring and everyone would see the beauty."

Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."

Finally the third tree said, "I want to grow up to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me."

After a few years of praying their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, "This looks like a strong tree; I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it downs. The tree was happy because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.

At the second tree the woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree, I should be able to sell it to a shipyard." The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.

When the woodsman came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, I'll take this one," and he cut it down.

When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.

The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end.

The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.

The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then one day a man and a woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made for the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.

Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace" and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.

Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.

The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are best.

What he valued most

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.
It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. The
funeral is Wednesday." Memories flashed through his mind like an old
newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

"Jack, did you hear me?"
"Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of
him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said.

"Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were
doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of
the fence' as he put it," Mom told him.

"I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said.

"You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make
sure you had a man's influence in your life," she said.

"He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said. "I wouldn't be in this
business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me
things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral,"
Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his
hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no
children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to
see the old house next door one more time.

Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing
over into another dimension, a leap through space and time. The house
was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture,
every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

"What's wrong, Jack?" his Mom asked.

"The box is gone," he said.

"What box? " Mom asked.

"There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I
must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell
me was 'the thing I value most,'" Jack said.

It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered
it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had
taken it.

"Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I better
get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom."

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from
work one day Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. "Signature required
on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within
the next three days," the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old and
looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was
difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention.

"Mr. Harold Belser" it read.

Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There
inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read
the note inside.

"Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack
Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life." A small key was taped
to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, Jack
carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold
pocket watch. Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing,
he unlatched the cover.

Inside he found these words engraved: "Jack, Thanks for your time!
Harold Belser."

"The thing he valued most...was...my time."

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and
cleared his appointments for the next two days. "Why?" Janet, his
assistant asked.

"I need some time to spend with my son," he said.

"Oh, by the way, Janet...thanks for your time!"

simplify ur life

ok! ive to admit im a s.cke.r when it comes to utilizing stuffs that i bought. i went thru my stuffs last nite until now, ive just realized ive too many unused or unimportant stuffs which are still new. foods, decors, clothes.. u wont believe i bought a few dresses/clothes and some 2 years back still in the closet, i never wear them:). my other biggest weakness is i would go to the pasar malam, buy fruits or foods and it would left in the fridge until it's time for me to say goodbye to them.

so i decided to really really clean up all the unimportant stuffs. well yeah it's a problem to get rid of them, so what i did was, i would ask myself a question " can i live without this" if the answer is yes.. it would straight away flying into the big big black plastic bag hehehe..

simplify ur life! will continue later.. neeed to do some grocery shopping. and yeppppp ive listed down what i really really need to buy hehehe....

the history, this moment and the unknown

reorganizing.. making decisions. uhhh.. tough isnt? but as u growing up, u realize that these are just part of things u've to do in ur life. u can pretend to ignore it, but u cant run with this so called 'adult-way-of-living'. im trying to organize myself maybe not everyday but i did this when i feel that im losing my track and i need to go to the basic again which is knowing where u r really heading.. discarding all doubts and moving ahead. always remember, there's always rooms for improvement for today and tomorrow but not yesterday. in another word, u cant change what had happened, u cant undo yesterday, u cant rewrite the history. u've a lot of plannings for tomorrow and keep hoping that tomorrow would always promising u something better.. not knowing today maybe the only time that we have.

rewriting plannings... yeah, it gives u a good feeling knowing that ' oh yeah,, ive jotted down every single things im gonna do in the future'. u know what.. i did the same, for the sake of comforting myself that i do have plans and im gonna stick with it. but the truth is, u never know what is gonna happen in the future.. not even tomorrow. dont plan anything at all? that would be s.t.u.p.i.d isnit? people say, failing to plan is planning to fail.

my point?.. hmmmm u cant change the history, tomrrow is unknown and all u have now is maybe not even the whole today.. but just.. this moment.

plannings:

1. spiritual
2. relationship (family, social, community)
3. financial
4. career
5. health
6. other goal (studies bla bla bla)

and then divide it into two categories, daily or short-term plannings and long-term plannings.

lastly:

u can plan everything but Remember!

surrender everything to God and He surely will direct ur path!

faith Vs Doubt

Doubt sees the obstacles.
Faith sees the way.
Doubt sees the darkest night.
Faith sees the day.
Doubt dreads to take a step.
Faith soars on high.
Doubt questions "Who believes"?
Faith answers "I".

source: http://www.motivateus.com/stories/faith.htm

Malaysia: A whole new era

a week after the election, the issue of the new government leading a few states(esp penang, perak, selangor) steal the limelight of this country since the past few days. It's not easy, everybody seems to argue abt the unexpected outcomes of their decisions and it's not surprising since Barisan National used to be the biggest winning party since 1969. I was not even born at that time. But im not going to give a lengthy explanation nor debate here about these parties. people have voted who they want to be their leaders, what i cared most is the unity and the peacefulness of this country. no matter what agendas or new planning that they going to introduce, the leaders should always focus on 'Malaysians' as a whole and not just particular races or groups, because at the end, the most important thing is not you being a chinese, malay, indian, sabahan, or sarawakian etc.. but in the end the most important thing is you as a malaysian.. and you should be proud of your own country. Racism is not a new issue, if you look around this globe you could learn a lot of things from them, and tell me what are the outcomes of all these 'always trying to be no.1'.. Leaders of this country, we have entrusted you the future of Malaysia in your hands, when you lose your focus just look around you, look at the small little children, they knew nothing about politics, knew nothing about economics, knew nothing about racism.. we are not going to live forever to take care of this country and until they mature enough to understand all these, plant the most important seed in their heart.. loving and respecting each other under the same roof regardless of their backgrounds.

We are trying hard to compete with other countries and building our economics to be stronger and richer, but do not overlook the most important focus of this country. Malaysia is just like a big family, if you focus too much on materialism and overlook the importance of being a big, happy family, at the end everybody would suffer. but before you talk about bigger things, we should look at ourselves as an individual. After all, it's started with the 'individual' who made the decision of this country. if you have regretted your decision, it's not time to pointing out fingers to blame someone.. it's time to SHUT UP and start working.. so welcome to the new future, i hope it's the beginning of a better era.. and not the ending!

I like the story below so i posted it here in my blog.

Regards,
Me

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THE COLOR OF FRIENDSHIP

December 1, 2003



Once upon a time the colors of the world started to quarrel. All claimed that they were the best. The most important. The most useful. The favorite.

Green said:
"Clearly I am the most important. I am the sign of life and of hope. I was chosen for grass, trees and leaves. Without me, all animals would die. Look over the countryside and you will see that I am in the majority."

Blue interrupted:
"You only think about the earth, but consider the sky and the sea. It is the water that is the basis of life and drawn up by the clouds from the deep sea. The sky gives space and peace and serenity. Without my peace, you would all be nothing."

Yellow chuckled:
"You are all so serious. I bring laughter, gaiety, and warmth into the world. The sun is yellow, the moon is yellow, the stars are yellow. Every time you look at a sunflower, the whole world starts to smile. Without me there would be no fun."

Orange started next to blow her trumpet:
"I am the color of health and strength. I may be scarce, but I am precious for I serve the needs of human life. I carry the most important vitamins. Think of carrots, pumpkins, oranges, mangoes, and papayas. I don't hang around all the time, but when I fill the sky at sunrise or sunset, my beauty is so striking that no one gives another thought to any of you."

Red could stand it no longer he shouted out:
"I am the ruler of all of you. I am blood - life's blood! I am the color of danger and of bravery. I am willing to fight for a cause. I bring fire into the blood. Without me, the earth would be as empty as the moon. I am the color of passion and of love, the red rose, the poinsettia and the poppy."

Purple rose up to his full height:
He was very tall and spoke with great pomp: "I am the color of royalty and power. Kings, chiefs, and bishops have always chosen me for I am the sign of authority and wisdom. People do not question me! They listen and obey."

Finally Indigo spoke, much more quietly than all the others, but with just as much determination:
"Think of me. I am the color of silence. You hardly notice me, but without me you all become superficial. I represent thought and reflection, twilight and deep water. You need me for balance and contrast, for prayer and inner peace."

And so the colors went on boasting, each convinced of his or her own superiority. Their quarreling became louder and louder. Suddenly there was a startling flash of bright lightening thunder rolled and boomed. Rain started to pour down relentlessly. The colors crouched down in fear, drawing close to one another for comfort.

In the midst of the clamor, rain began to speak:
"You foolish colors, fighting amongst yourselves, each trying to dominate the rest. Don't you know that you were each made for a special purpose, unique and different? Join hands with one another and come to me."

Doing as they were told, the colors united and joined hands.

The rain continued:
"From now on, when it rains, each of you will stretch across the sky in a great bow of color as a reminder that you can all live in peace. The Rainbow is a sign of hope for tomorrow."

And so, whenever a good rain washes the world, and a Rainbow appears in the sky, let us remember to appreciate one another.
--- Author Unknown

source: http://www.motivateus.com/stories/color.htm

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song: Tupac - Changes

[Verse 1]
Come on come on
I see no changes wake up in the morning and I ask myself
is life worth living should I blast myself?
I'm tired of bein' poor & even worse I'm black
my stomach hurts so I'm lookin' for a purse to snatch
Cops give a damn about a negro
pull the trigger kill a nigga he's a hero
Give the crack to the kids who the hell cares
one less hungry mouth on the welfare
First ship 'em dope & let 'em deal the brothers
give 'em guns step back watch 'em kill each other
It's time to fight back that's what Huey said
2 shots in the dark now Huey's dead
I got love for my brother but we can never go nowhere
unless we share with each other
We gotta start makin' changes
learn to see me as a brother instead of 2 distant strangers
and that's how it's supposed to be
How can the Devil take a brother if he's close to me?
I'd love to go back to when we played as kids
but things changed, and that's the way it is

[Chorues with changing ad libs]
Come on come on
That's just the way it is
Things'll never be the same
That's just the way it is
aww yeah
[Repeat]

[Verse 2]
I see no changes all I see is racist faces
misplaced hate makes disgrace to races
We under I wonder what it takes to make this
one better place, let's erase the wasted
Take the evil out the people they'll be acting right
'cause mo' black and white is smokin' crack tonight
and only time we chill is when we kill each other
it takes skill to be real, time to heal each other
And although it seems heaven sent
We ain't ready, to see a black President, uhh
It ain't a secret don't conceal the fact
the penitentiary's packed, and it's filled with blacks
But some things will never change
try to show another way but you stayin' in the dope game
Now tell me what's a mother to do
bein' real don't appeal to the brother in you
You gotta operate the easy way
"I made a G today" But you made it in a sleazy way
sellin' crack to the kid. " I gotta get paid,"
Well hey, well that's the way it is

[Chorus]2X

[2pac Talking]
We gotta make a change...
It's time for us as a people to start makin' some changes.
Let's change the way we eat, let's change the way we live
and let's change the way we treat each other.
You see the old way wasn't working so it's on us to do
what we gotta do, to survive.

[Verse 3]
And still I see no changes can't a brother get a little peace
There's war in the streets and war in the middle east
Instead of war on poverty they got a war on drugs
so the police can bother me
And I ain't never did a crime I ain't have to do
But now I'm back with the facts givin' em back to you
Don't let 'em jack you up, back you up,
crack you up and pimps Smack you up
You gotta learn to hold ya own
they get jealous when they see ya with ya mobile phone
But tell the cops they can't touch this
I don't trust this when they try to rush I bust this
That's the sound of my tool you say it ain't cool
my mama didn't raise no fool
And as long as I stay black I gotta stay strapped
& I never get to lay back
'Cause I always got to worry 'bout the pay backs
some buck that I roughed up way back
comin' back after all these years
rat-a-tat-tat-tat-tat that's the way it is uhh

Chorus 2x

Some things will never change...

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God vs the scientist

God vs The Scientist

God was sitting in heaven one day when a scientist said to Him, “God, we don’t need you anymore.
Science has finally figured out a way to create life out of nothing -
in other words, we can now do what you did in the beginning.”

“Oh, is that so? Explain…” replies God.
“Well,” says the scientist, “we can take dirt and form it into the likeness of
you and breathe life into it, thus creating man.”

“Well, that’s very interesting… show Me.”

So the scientist bends down to the earth and starts to mold
the soil into the shape of a man. “No, no, no…” interrupts God, “Get your own dirt.”

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source: I dont remember where i copied it, www somewhere :D

Mirror, mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of all..

how often do you look into the mirror and see 'yourself' ? or do you always see someone imperfect and always comparing yourself with someone else that you wish to be?

how often do you look into the mirror and see beyond that imperfections you see yourself as someone who have the same opportunity to live in this world?

many failed to recognize their own strength because they always comparing themselves with others. You wish to be someone else therefore you rejected every opportunity that you can do with your own strength and despite of your weakness. yes, there's nothing wrong with admiring others but dont buried 'yourself' and become 'the others'. You are unique in your own weakness, you r not a duplicate nor a double. you are what you are. Seek your true self, and when you found it, accept and be true. Only when you know and able to accept your true self, that you can come out stronger.
Be committed to becoming the best person that you can be no matter what obstacles you are facing. and always remember.. God loves you!

Good day!
Hness

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Love Thyself

August 1, 2005

How many times do we think about our own real self? Not the way world wants us to think, but how we ourselves want to think. We think, behave, express, talk ...talk, speak and live like someone who is totally alien to us. We can't relate to that person, but still just want to be like that person because that particular person happens to be some celebrity.

What we become is something totally different, someone we don't know at all --- like an unknown stranger. If we pause for a while and look deep inside ourselves, we will be shaken to core because of what we see. The image is horrible and disgusting, which anyone can abhor but no one can adore. The human in our self is neglected, dejected, deformed and helpless. Instead of sympathy or empathy, we just turn our face away.

Our inner picture is always reflected outward. Just think, if we can't even look at our own inner self, how can we love something that's so horrible? Is it fair, on our part, to let this happen to the human inside us? Despite this, we know it's not good on our part. We do let it happen to ourselves knowingly or unknowingly. Somewhere along the line, the real being in us is taken for granted. Day in and day out, we don't listen to its humble voice - ignoring it always, letting others rule our heart and influence our decisions. In life, this is so wrong. The only thing we did then was love our own self rather than wishing to be someone that the other person loves.

The following simple guidelines can help us to love ourselves again:

Do not try to live another's life.

Enhance your qualities

Know your flaws and correct them

Lead a disciplined lifestyle

Give space to others so that you get your own

Voice your own views, if not then keep quiet

Sit with your own self for at least 10 minutes in a day

Replace negative with positive

Believe in yourself and the heavens above

Do not take anyone or yourself for granted

Last, but not the least, never underestimate the power of prayer

--- Copyright © 2005 Vikki Kumar

source: http://www.motivateus.com
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Never lose hope..

ever wonder why so many ppl committing suicides these days.. ppl losing faith & hope in the lives. losing the purpose to live and the only option they could see is to end it. Life, the only gift that you could never trade with anything else in this world.. yet it's only takes a second to destroy it.

" if you died, died for something, and if you live, live for a reason" = sounds familiar? yeah.. it's from RAMBO 4 :)

and lets the reason to live is God.

When everything seems to fall apart, Remember, God loves you. the sun is still rising, showing God's love for you and me.. so choose to have hope in God, He will never fail you :).

-me-

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Never Lose Hope!

Into each life a rain must fall
There's joy and pain you can recall
Life's full of challenge; big and small
But you can overcome them all.

Put everything in perspective
See things clearly, be positive
Life's wonderful, plenty to give
More goals and dreams you can achieve.

Leave the past, to the future move on
No regrets, just wisdom and vision
Everything happens for a reason
It's your new dawn, change your direction.

Look at life on a brighter scope
No burden's too great, you can't cope
In time; wounds will heal, do not mope
You'll rise and shine, never lose hope!

--- Copyright © 2007 Winnie Cemat Sharp
Winnie Cemat Sharp is an Author and Writer - Visit her at: http://www.wcsharp2000.bravejournal.com/
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Have a blessed sabbath.

lalalalala.. ive been tagged!

Ive been tagged!

ok so ive been tagged by pammie.. hmmmmmmm so what am i supposd to do with this one again?, im not good at following rules but im not a rule breaker either.. ekekeke.

The Rules :

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. List 8 random facts about yourself.
3. Tag 8 people at the end of this post and list their names.
4. Let them know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

The 8…

ok let me tell you the 'human' side of me..

1. choc cakes - the only sweet food i really love to eat, and chicken is my fave menu.. becos of this im singing the song "im the blacksheep of the family".. to my frens.. u know what i mean :p
2. im trying not to forget your name tomorrow, it's not me.. it's just da brain.yup.. blame the brain. seriously.
3. i love music..
4. if you dont want to be ignored, try not to disturb me when im watching tv or playing piano.
5. languages r my interest
6. sorry, cant stand crybabies
7. i hate guys talking really loud when trying to get attention
8. is this the last one? hey im not finish yett, alrite, alrite the rule says only 8.. *grin*

I want another 8 from…

1. refer below
2. refer below
3. refer below
4. refer below
5. refer below
6. refer below
7. not yet.. another below..
8. ok, if you still reading this then it should be you.

my holidays

i was on holidays for a few days earley dis month. ive enjoyed my holidays with my gila2 frens(thanks Kate for letting us to stay in ur house and also Yulin, n also all of u who were with us n making my holidays memorable !) except for the last few days before i came back here kl. it was raining frm sunday until tuesday so what i did was walking back and forth in my house.. ive got nothing to do .. just sleeping, watching tv, disturbing and constanty reminding my 5 year-old-to-be nephew what to be do's and donts'.. and he was grinning trying to convince me that he understood which lasts like.. 5 minutes? then he would run and disturbed everybody again.*sigh*

on wednesday, my flight was retimed frm 9:15pm to 10:35pm and i only reached home(KL) around 3am in the morning. ive to get up at 6:30am to go to work and still able to do my work though i was very very sleepy. cudnt wait to go back and sleep. but i didnt as i planned coz my laptop got probs so ive to reformat it and installing, doing backup all my files until 1am at nite so u cud imagined how sleepy i was.

everybody is missing now.. some still on holidays, while im typing this blog this very moment, i think my laptop is going nutz coz everytime i typed somthing the cursor would just moved somewhere.. im very tempted to say the F word outloud. .. let me sh
ow u how crazy my laptop keyboard now..

" my laptop is crazy, my laptop iyys going nuts... crazy crazy yaikksssss , laptop crazy crazy laptop arghhhhh this keyboard is bungung, i would have to spend a few hours of my precious time to check what's going on with my laptop. mean
u see what i"..

no typo error here, it's the cursor, would just jump somewhere..

u see what i mean? bless me.

so ya.. im done with blogging for today coz if i continue typing i may ended up needd more fixing than this laptop.

:P sign out.

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ive always wanted to be a doctor or great at music. i still remember how upset my mother was when i decided to choose accounting instead of science trm when i was in form 4. because she knew ive always wanted to be a doctor, worst, i decided to take accounting because i followed the crowd, ive no interest at all in that subject.. no one in my class really interested to become a doctor, everybody seems to agree that it's too difficult, but science to me was really really interesting and i was confident that i could do it ( i hated math anyway .. weird huh), .. if u askd me now whether ive regretted my decision, mbe.. i mean im just curious how would it be if ive made dfferent choice in my life at that time. But for what i am now, i know God has purposes for me, if u were given a choice to go back and u have a chance to 'redo' things, what would you do? will u rather 'go back' or r u accepting just the way u r now, to me.. there's no used of looking back and regretting things that already past, because no matter how much time you spend to think about it, the word IF would just stay as it is.. what matter most is you start ur life like a blank page everyday and paint it with the most beautiful painting u cud make/imagine everyday.. and btw i dont believe life is begin at 40.. it's begin TODAY!..

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If you could start your life all over what would be different? What would you change now if you were able to wave a magic wand and start from scratch?

Just imagine you have no ties, no burdens, no limits, no memories, and no past.

What would your life look like? If the answer that comes to your mind is different than what you are doing, why is that? Is it because of someone else's opinion? A spouse, a parent - or maybe your children?

The ultimate test of your life is to close your eyes and think of yourself on your deathbed. Lying there, preparing yourself to leave, look back at your life as you are currently living it.

How do you feel? Are you satisfied you lived completely? Or do you wish you had done differently? Very few of our senior citizens look back on their life and say, "I sure wish I had spent more time at the office!" Nobody says, "I wish I had watched more TV!"

This is what they say. "I wish I had been bolder. I wish I had given more. I wish I had tried harder to see more, do more and feel more." People wish that they had lived more.

I, for one, have to admit to a certain amount of holding back on dreams and goals because of our two boys. As my life progresses I realize there is no reason to hold back.

We have not been exactly standing still either. We have done our best to live our dreams. We built a sailboat and sailed for 7 years traveling on the open ocean. We lived in the snow in Aspen Colorado, and on the beach in South Carolina. An old brick mill was our home in Long Island, versus a boat dock in Palm Beach Florida. We are writers of books and music, actors in the theater, and we home- school the boys. We have built a horse farm, and businesses! Yet, there is so much more we want to do!

It is a balancing act. We all must have sufficient finances to support a comfortable lifestyle, (although most of us tend to spend way too much on that!) Part of this balancing act is understanding what we are passionate about doing so that work becomes a joy instead of a job.

Is this not a major reason of lost dreams and goals? Many people find work, call it a job and make a living at it. But they begrudge every minute of it, going as far as using the job as a reason for playing the martyr. Find something else!

There are many, many teachers of the attraction philosophies of "making a life". With as many opportunities today in every field imaginable, somewhere, something is calling to you.

Another part of the balancing act is to include those around you in frank and open discussions in what it is you want. I find some of my coaching clients have kept their wants and needs bottled up inside them forever! They had already decided for the other person in their lives there was no interest in whatever it was they themselves wanted to do! How absurd! How can we possibly know what someone else wants!

Would it not be tragic to spend your life in a big city for 40 years, working at a job you despise because you thought your spouse liked it, even though you wanted to live in the country and be a farmer? Then one day you overhear your spouse tell her best friend all she ever wanted to do was live in the country? 40 years!

Sure this is a bit far fetched - but you would be amazed at what I hear!

Make an attempt today to start with a brand new page of your life. Create your life story how you want it. If there are others in your life to be involved, have them do the same exercise. Then compare what your notes. If this matches your current life, congratulations! You are one of the few. Now make it better.

However, if your written life stories sound like someone completely different, then you are living a life of conflict.

Here is the good news. Your life is your life. No one can take that away from you. You are not indentured. You are not a slave. You are free to go, do, and be whomever you wish.

It might not be easy, but it sure might be worth it. I coach people daily who are changing their lives. There are so many things to be grateful for, and so many things open to us. We owe it to all the ones before us who gave us this opportunity to take advantage of it.

Today.

--- Copyright © 2007 Miami Phillips
Miami Phillips mentors and teaches individuals how to live have a successful business and personal life. Go to: http://www.miamiphillips.com

Have faith... (what is your destiny?)

is it too late for you to do something ? too late to do everything? think again.. everything has its own time. have faith in urself... and read the true inspiring story below.
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What is your destiny?

It's Never Too Late to Pursue Your Destiny. As a professional speaker, I speak to tens of thousands of people of all ages from all walks of life. I constantly get feedback from those in their 50s, 60s, and 70s, advising me that it is too late for them to create their own destiny. They believe they are too old, too broke, too out of shape, and too tired to do anything about their future. They stubbornly believe achieving prosperity is only for those still in their 20s and 30s. Many of these people do not believe it is possible to create their own destiny. Limited by their own personal beliefs these people settle for less and never achieve prosperity.

The question I always ask my audience is the same question I pose to you: Are you creating your own destiny, or are you creating someone else's destiny? What do I mean by this? Consider the story of Cliff Young, a humble potato farmer in Australia, who consciously decided at age 57 to create his own destiny. Up to this point his destiny was running the family farm and settling for a life of hard work; however, Cliff was quietly harboring a passion for long-distance running.

He came to the decision to live his own life and create his own destiny. Soon he was seen in the wet Australian countryside training in a rain coat and gum boots. It did not matter to him that he was 57 years old, ill equipped and drastically out of running shape. What mattered most to him after all these years on the farm was pursuing his passions and creating his own destiny. He ignored those who mocked him and the drivers who tried to run him off the backcountry roads. He continued to train and built up to running 20 to 30 miles per day, day in and day out.

In May 1983, after four years of constant training, Cliff Young shocked the world. At 61 he won the first Sydney-to-Melbourne ultra-marathon - a distance of 875 kilometers (nearly 545 miles). To run this distance at any age is quite a feat, but to run it at 61 and beat some of the world's best-conditioned athletes in their 20's and 30's, is absolutely incredible!

For years, running experts believed that the body needed a certain amount of sleep per night when running a grueling 100 miles per day. However, after falling so far behind on the first day of the race, Cliff awoke at 1:00 AM and started running throughout the night. He surpassed the leaders, who slept to the usual 5:00 AM. Cliff's strategy worked so well that he continued to wake and start running each morning four hours earlier than all of his competitors. As a result of using this bold racing strategy, he astonished the world by crossing the finish line in first place. After five days, 15 hours, and four minutes Cliff Young was the victor, at 61 years old!

The news of Cliff Young's shocking victory quickly traveled throughout Australia. At his age, with his lack of experience, and facing the country's best long-distance runners no one thought he had a chance. He became a living legend, and the nation fell in love with this 61-year-old potato farmer who saw the invisible, and achieved the impossible. When talking about the prize money, Cliff was quoted as saying "$10,000, wow that is a helluva lot of potatoes!" He then proceeded to share his prize money with the other competitors acknowledging their preparation and hard work.

In 1984 and again in 1987 at 62 and 65 he competed in the cross country race, continuing to use his 1:00 A.M. start time routine. Now this strategy of waking at 1:00 AM, instead of 5:00 AM is a widely accepted practice in this event. Cliff Young broke a paradigm, overcame self-doubt, and accomplished what no one in the world thought remotely possible. Of greater significance is how he created his own destiny. He created a legacy of innovation and inspiration simply by following his passions, and was not limited by the beliefs held by so many others in their 50s, 60s, and 70s.

Despite his age at 61, Cliff Young become prosperous as he created his own destiny. Regardless of your age and physical condition you too can take charge of your life and pursue prosperity. You do have the power to achieve prosperity at any age. You alone must be willing to take charge of your future by following your heart, pursuing your passions, and creating your own destiny.

No matter your age and in spite of your current challenges, be more like Cliff Young and take control of your future. Embrace the belief that it is never too late to create your own destiny and achieve prosperity. I challenge you at any age to dream, plan, execute, and soar to a life full of prosperity!

--- Copyright © 2008 Patrick Snow
Patrick Snow is the best-selling author of Creating Your Own Destiny, which has sold over 125,000 copies worldwide and has been featured in a cover story in USA Today. He is also a keynote speaker, and publishing coach. He can be reached at (800) 951-7721 or www.CreateYourOwnDestiny.com

source: www.http://www.motivateus.com/stories/pursue-your-destiny.htm

December 2007

ohh welll.. what can i say. it's alredi new year and ivent finishd my blog abt thailand camporee. i was just sooooo busy with christmas program, new year eve prog and with the ay stuff.. visitation to old folks home etc. early dec 9-17 i was in thailand, after came back we've to arrange another choir practises, in fact we spent our holiday on the 20th for our choir practise. 21st & 23rd we went to legend hotel for our christmas carol there, we hve done our christmas carol at mandarin oriental a few times, a few years back, shang-ri la hotel, british council and sri carcosa negara. well, we are not pro, sing2 sikit2 bulih lah.. it's all about commitment and also discipline.. and of course knowing ur purpose of doing it.. on the 22nd our choir group took over the church service and presentd christmas carols again and then in the afternoon we went to eve's house to present another christmas carol.. huahhh i need to breathe.. on 24th we wr so privileged to hve the bangkok adventist hospital choirs to present their christmas carol.. and on the 25th since there's no open house this year we've decided to have our own small party which we have our barbeque at pastor's place(swimming pool area) and we spent the whole day at their place until evening. ..

and then.. im blank.. did we have anything on the 26th? i dont remember.. was i working? i think so coz i dont think it's holiday. on the 29, another visitation to salvation's army special home in the afternoon. on sunday we went to pastor's place to help his family(move out frm puchong to kelana jaya).. there were about 14 of us.. we finishd around 6pm and decided to swim at their new swimming pool area.. on 31st, new year's eve program at church until new year... 1st december we went to uncle alex's open house, then on the afternoon we went to church to eat nangka.. btw, im not a fan of sweet stuffs (except choc n certain fruits) so i didnt really bother abt it. tidur ja sia. at 7pm we decided to go for bowling, usually we would go to midvalley but it must be really really and i mean really really crowded there so we've decided to go to the mines. nice place, cheaper baju but i dont like the bowling centre.. too bright and waiting list lagi coz fullnya orang sungguh.

ive to admit my writing skill s gting worse and worse everday.. just read my review for this month.. very straight forward.. ,mbe it would be more understandable in table format haha.. pardon me :P

argghh im sleepy.. i wanted to write a review for ay 2007 program but i cant seem to find the right time to do it.. i need a breakkk.. give me a holiday.. stay at home, do nothing but watching movie, have a good laugh, clean my room, do laundry.. and sleep for at least 8 hourss.. and it's 12:30 midnite.. so nite :)

owh.. before that..


Happy New Year again :) May God bless you.

.>>>>me :P Signing out.